Assisted fertility treatment. The Heartbreak.

Well. Here it goes. Assisted fertility treatment. It didn't work for us. Heart broken. I could almost hear the sound of shattering. Shattering of hope, dreams about future. It was so much harder than I ever thought possible. Loosing something you didn't have to begin with. But loss nevertheless. Loss of opportunity to start a family. This time around! Thats what I keep telling myself. It will work next time. I'm sure. I'm hopeful. I've never wanted anything so badly in my life. It will work. But for now I'm grieving. Or I'm trying to cope with this overwhelming consuming emptiness that resides inside my heart for now. Time heals all the wounds and it will heal this one. Tears! There is something so comforting about the saltiness of a tear. Crying helps. Not crying - sobbing. Pain. Physical pain. It will fade but never will my longing for a patter of tiny feet. Let's hope. And for all those that went trough this I feel your pain. I now understand. I thought I will be stronger but I'm not. I pray for myself and for those of you who is going through this.